| To do this weekend: a novel |
[Mar. 4th, 2006|10:57 am] |
To do this weekend: a novel
**Read 2 articles for Lit/Interp and write a paper on each of them...it's due Wednesday, but oh yeah, he's assigning more on Monday...
**Another paper for English...on the language of Desdemona in Othello...goodie.
**Miscellaneous History stuffs. Including a whole book, a couple article/"short" readings/watching a movie. Oh, and a reaction paper.
(What is that? 4 papers now?!)
**Packet for Philosophy...but don't worry, it's only 11 pages this time...
**SRF stuff...aka learn everything about how to set up and run a bio experiment on water conditions with a fungicide present, read a million articles, some of which i have to get from a diff library, and write a 3 page paper on it..
And, making time for my mom. <--This is what's going to keep me sane!!
And...Greek 101...just about the most boring thing ever in T minus an hour and fifteen. But AFTER that my mom and I are going to Indy for dinner and shopping...yay for getting in trouble with my mom! I love when that happens! |
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| I was tagged by Rachel |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|12:32 pm] |
| [ | I Feel... |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | Dancing To... |
| | "Famous One" ~Building 429 | ] |
***Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yours" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about their 5 quirky habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names.***
1) I always use the second stall in the bathroom. That is, unless there's someone in it already and I don't want to wait...then I use the fourth because then there's a stall in between us. But if no one's in the second, but it's too gross for me to use, I use the first stall. I never use the third, under any circumstance. I know that's really weird. Going along with this, I use the first shower, and the first sink. If the first sink's taken I go to the third...if it's just gross, I go to the second...kind of like the stalls.
2) I eat candy in a certain order. I have to eat them in color order...my least favorite to my favorite, and if they're like M&Ms or Skittles, I have to eat them two at a time. If there's an odd number, I switch to threes but get kind of upset...
3) After having left the dorm and returned, I have to check my email first thing. It doesn't matter if I was only checking my UB box and I was gone for all of three seconds. If I left the dorm, it HAS to be done as soon as I get back, plain and simple.
4) At home there are multiple light switches for one light...the switch always has to be turned off with it pointing down. Since there's two switches, it's possible to get the light to be off with the switch pointing up, but I can't leave the room until they're all pointing down for the lights to be off.
5) I always have to put on perfume right before leaving my room. Even if I'm going to the GYM, yes, the gym. I have to do it otherwise I feel weird. I even do it before going to swim practice, otherwise things just don't feel right. I also always match my clothes...even my work out clothes. Yeah...
TAG YOU'RE IT Patrick, Kathy, Julia, Jon, Alycia
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| oh gosh dang. |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|04:25 pm] |
| [ | I Feel... |
| |  calm | ] |
I just lost my whole amazing entry...but I really don't feel like retyping it right now... |
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| Just so you know... |
[Sep. 10th, 2005|11:35 am] |
Being here at college has showed me how immature people are and I'm really tired of it. I realize that I'm going to run into immature people everywhere throughout my whole life (heaven knows my grandpa is one of the most immature people I know and he's 84) but still, I'd like to try and fix it when I can. I honestly can tell you, I don't care what you think of me, anyone, anywhere. I would appreciate people not sinking to insulting people's speech though, that's totally unneccessary in almost all situations, and just shows that there's something lying beneath the surface that needs to be addressed.
That in mind, just so you know and I don't feel inclined to try a middle school-esque attack on me, here's some things I do HONESTLY say:
**Heart ya/that/you/it/them/etc...
**Effing
**No lie. True story.
**Fugly slut
**Hardy har
**Not gunna lie.
**Boo, you whore.
**Ginormous/jamazing/any combination of words...
**Lovely/my love/lover/etc...
**Hello, hello (my darling)
**Heaven knows/G-d only knows
**Holy cow/maceral/etc...
So back up off already. If I type something, I probably say it in normal conversation as well. I don't have a split vocabulary, that would be ridiculous. Also, if you disagree with someone's opinions, have the nerve to say it. I respect people who tell me I'm wrong, I abhor people who think I'm wrong but decide to insult something about me instead of pointing out their opinion. It doesn't matter if I'm totally set in my opinion, you can tell me I'm wrong, I'll disagree with you, or maybe see why I'm wrong or how I could have expressed something better, and I'll seriously respect you for coming to me and saying something. Honesty carries a lot of weight with me. Bullshit, on the other hand, does not. So just try me, I'm pretty reasonable most of the time, even if that sounds surprising to you.
XoX |
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| I want out. |
[Aug. 16th, 2005|03:53 pm] |
I feel sick. Really sick. I know I have to throw up, but I know if I do, I won't be able to stop. My head hurts, it feels like it's about to explode. My back's starting to stiffen up and ache...I guess I should tell you why I feel this way. I got rear-ended. All I want to do is go back to sleep, but if I do, I know the accident will just keep replaying in my head and I'll wake up sweating again. I don't want to relive it anymore. I want to have dreamless sleep. All I keep seeing is the car coming closer and closer in my rear-view mirror and I hear the squeel of the tires...and myself screaming, but I can't stop screaming. I couldn't stop screaming, because maybe if I screamed enough, it would all go away: the car hurtling towards me, the hurt, the people staring as they drove by, the smell of the rubber from his tires, and I'd be driving again. But it was just me screaming and crying. And the guy wouldn't answer my question. He wouldn't tell me what happened to my car, so I kept asking. All the water is out of my body...I cried it all out. I wanted to pass out, that's all I really wanted. But then the ambulence would have to come, and I don't need an ambulance, I just need time to wake up. I probably don't make any sense right now. It makes sense to me, but it didn't to the officer...he looked at me like I was rambling. I'm fine, he's fine, my car's fine...but his car...it died. It had a Jesus bumper sticker. But in my mind it's whole again and hurtling at my car. I just wanted to be a good driver. Yellow means stop. I was good, but it wasn't good. I made Jayson's lunch arrive late. I could think better if my head didn't hurt this much.
I'm living constantly in the same half an hour. I want out. |
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| Guess who's back! |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|01:19 pm] |
| [ | I Feel... |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Dancing To... |
| | "Open Door" ~Bodies Without Organs | ] |
Oh my effing god. Longest vacation of my entire life! And it sucked ass! SO. I endure a nine hour flight to Sweden in the hopes of seeing family that I haven't seen in forever and evening out my tan. Weeeeelll, it was 50-60 degrees every day and raining all but two days. Being stuck in a summer cottage with a TV with 2 channels is NOT fun.
My mom and my grandpa got in a MAJOR fight. My mom told me to ask my grandpa where our family portrait is that we sent him, because the one of my uncle's family was up but not ours, so I do, because I have no shame. Well. Bad idea. So, my grandpa tells me that he rotates the pictures out of that one frame to the photo albums, so I'm ok with that I got an answer and it was fine. But then the next morning we were going to leave for the other coast and we stop by to say bye, and he GOES OFF! He orders my mom to translate and marches us around the house to prove to us that there are pictures of us up. (Which, there's only one, and I am LITERALLY five in that picture) Then he tells us that of course there are going to be more pictures of the other family because it was his second wife's house and her only child was my uncle, so there are going to be more pictures of HER children in HER house. Soooo, then he tells us that she didn't really consider us her grandchildren. We were considered "special" but NOT her grandkids just because my mom was her step daughter. What bullshit is that?! So we used to call her grandma Meijken, but now we just call her Meijken. Not that it matters since she passed away at the beginning of this year. But get this: even thought we're NOT her gandkids, he expects us to visit her grave with him! He raises this big stink about it!
So basically, if you don't know already, my grandpa's an ass. My mom left his house that day angry as all get out and I left crying. So, we find out that he has cyatica which is a leg pain caused by a hurt back...the doctor tells him to stay in bed and take pain medicine because it'll go away in a few days that way. What does he do? He refuses to take the medicine because he's afraid it'll do something to him, and he goes and works in the garden for four hours!!!
So, the west coast was better. We stayed with a close friend of my mom's and her husband, and they greeted us at the door that same day as the huge fight with glasses of wine and whiskey! How amazing are they? Lovely people, really. Chris, the lady we stayed with, has like no nervous bone in her body, she's SO laid back. It's absolutely amazing! So we stayed a few extra days. There's a shop/restaurant there that only serves salmon. That's it. Just salmon. It was amazing. They had salmon prepared in like 100 different ways. They even had purses made out of salmon scales...kind os like snake skin...it was actually really cute!
So, here's a few things from Sweden worth mentioning just because they were amusing:
*No one, literally, no one, says excuse me when shopping. They expect you to move that instant without them saying anything, but they will never move for you. If need be, they will shove you out of the way without a second though. No offense, just business. Supermarkets, therefore, are crazy.
*I drank more coffee than I have before in my life. Swedes drink just about the strongest coffee in the world about eight times a day. Oh, and by the way, even if you love coffee, like me, it sucks, beause let's face it, you can't buy coffee, you can only rent it if you catch my meaning.
*Amoung several other note worthy traditions of the Swedes are: skinny dipping in the morning, having a shot then jumping into the Baltic (which is freezing!), being a "good Viking" and being tough, wearing short shorts (even if you're 60...EW!), and knowing everything about everyone else at all times.
*The guys in the cottage next door were from Holland, obsessed with 50 Cent, and called me "the Baywatch Babe." Oh, and one says "fook" instead of "fuck." They were pretty amusing, but seriously...Dutch people...50 Cent....somehow those two things don't match up in my head.
*Amoung other interesting pronunciations, I heard: "plantology" instead of "plant biology" "Yahoozie" instead of "jacuzzi" "dingle" instead of "dinghie" and of course "fook" instead of "fuck." As you can see, their english is not the best.
So, then I come back...I kinda felt like no one missed me. I hear all about everyone hanging out with all these different people and doing all of these fun things and then I come back to the pool and people didn't even notice I was gone for three flipping weeks. Thanks a lot. I'm glad people love me so much. I get more appreciation from people at DePauw that I met for a few hours...some of us are counting down the days until we see each other. I mean come on...how ironic. As well as that, Jayson got the "Biggest Flirt" award at work which doesn't make me too happy, and people have been hitting on him while I've been gone that I thought were my friends. Thanks. A. Lot. If you want to flirt with him, fine, but don't pretend to be my friend at the same time. And if you want to be my friend, you should respect my relationship and want it to be successful. People are messed up.
But anyways, being back is really weird. I suddenly feel like I kind of don't belong...not that people have acted that way...it just feels that way, maybe because I missed so much being gone. The weirdest thing is...I'm not sure I want to be around people right now. I totally know how Bails felt when she got back from her trips...I was so sick of my personal alone time when I was in Sweden, but suddenly it's starting to sound really good.
I'm going to post pictures from my trip soon. Most I was going for artistic, so they're not so fun. But others are just plain, so I'll post all of them.
Special note: if you want to spend time with me before I move into school on the 20th, get ahold of me now. There's so many people I need to hang out with, so bother me so that I don't forget. I missed everyone. I guess I complain a lot, but it IS good to be back.
XoX |
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| *B*o*R*e*D* |
[Jun. 9th, 2005|03:02 pm] |
| [ | I Feel... |
| | bored | ] |
SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELf
+ Known as: Linnea
+ Lives in: Champaign effing Urbana
+ FiRST BREATH: 06-27-87
+ School: centennial
+ Hair color: blonde
+ Eye color: one blue, one green
+ Style: trendy/preppy
+ Fears: death/dying, the dark, losing people I care about
SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? um...yeah.
+ Been Cheated on? nope
+ Fallen off the bed? of course
+ broken someone`s heart? have no idea
+ Had your heart broken? oh heck yes!
+ Had a dream come true? not really...
+ Done something you regret? ah, yeah, but live life and get over it, yah know...
+ Cheated on a test? nope! I'm a good little girlie
SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? my guard suit and a zip up hoodie
+ Listening to? Kim Possible...haha
+ Located? um, "reck-room" downstairs
+ Chatting with? no one...wrong computer for that
+ Watching? Kim Possible
+ Should REALLY be doing? writing thank you notes for graduation
SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yeah, unless I get home super late and collapse and then I brush like eight times the next morning!
+ Like anybody? yes. I Love my baby! *mwuaa*
+ Have any piercing? 1 in each year
+ Drive? yes
+ Drink? nope
+ Smoke? nope
+ Got a pager? nope
SECTION 5 FRiENDS...
+ Who is your best? Bails, Franki, and Jayson
+ Who do you hate? none of them....this is about friends right?!
+ Who is the shyest? Megan...fo sho.
+ Who is the most talkative? Bails me thinks...
+ Who is the cutest? Katie Dan! I'm SO jealous!
+ Who laughs the most? Michaela and I love it! She makes me smile all the time because she's always in a good mood.
+ Who have you known the longest? Kathy, but we're not friends anymore...so, Elaine
+ Who have you known the shortest? Michaela and Bails.
+ Who do you miss the most? Kelsey First
+ Who do you go to with personal problems? Jayson, Franki, or Bails
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? yeah! Guys are SO much fun!
+ Do you trust your friends? it's hard for me because of past friends that we're...well, good friends, but I try.
+ Are you a good friend? heck yes.
+ Can you keep a secret? most of the time. depends on whether it's dangerous to someone's health or not.
SECTION 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? Jayson, Bails, or Jackie
+ Kissed? Jayson
+ IMed? Ezra
+ Talked on the phone? Jayson
+ Yelled at? Jayson
+ Fell in love with? Jayson
SECTION 7 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? a spokesperson for a drug or makeup company, a writer, or a journalist
+ What has been the best day of your life? The day Jayson asked me out. Sarah and I were still really good friends, I was getting to know Bails better, I had organized a dance by myself, the dance was amazing! and Jayson was really cute! Great day, hands down.
+ What comes first in your life? depends on the situation.
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? yeppers, Jayson, boyfriend
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? whether I forgot anything or not...what I have to do tomorrow and it's usually a long list...et cetera
+ How many times have you fallen in love? once
+ Love your family? yeah, get along with them...that's a different story.
+ Love your friends? OMG, yes. It took me a while to figure out who my real friends were, but I got there and they're amazing!!
SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: Gladiator!
+ Song: hmm, really don't know. I really like "Hard Way" ~Mary Chapin Carpenter and "Free Falling" ~Tom Petty
+ Group: haha, BSB prolly...love the new song.
+ Store: bebe sport all the way!!
+ Relative: uncle len....but of living relatives...prolly my cousin Mark! He's flipping amazing!
+ Sport: haha, this will be a surprise...rhythmic gymnastics. Followed by ultimate, waterpolo, volleyball, swimming, and football. But I found out that I really like tennis...I guess most sports.
+ Ice Cream Flavor: java chip by Starbucks
+ Fruit: raspberries and pears
+ Candy: oh, gummies...most def
+ Holiday: Valentine's Day/Mardi Gras!!
+ Day of the Week: friday or saturday
+ Time of day: not quite sure...depends on the time of year
+ Color: hot barbie pink and silver
+ Name for a Girl: Lachlan or Lada
+ Name for a Boy: Hugh
+ Quote: good, better, best, never let it rest until your good is better and your better is best.
SECTION 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? oh yeah!!
+ Like to give kisses? heck yes!
+ Like to walk in the rain? yeah!
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black...for some reason I hate the blue pens...
+ Like to travel? yes! I love going on planes, and I love staying in hotels. Traveling to different countries is the best though!
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? side, only way to go.
+ Think you're attractive? most of the time
+ Have a goldfish? nope
+ Ever have the falling dream? yeah! and the one where some kind of animal is going to eat you...
+ Have stuffed animals? oh heck yes! I have so many! I sleep with four...three that Jayson gave me and my teddy from when I was a kid.
SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: I'm pro-choice all the way...I'm not going to make someone have a kid if they were raped. Plus, if the kid has a disease where they're going to suffer for a couple months then die, I don't see any point in causing that suffering. I know some people abuse the power, but I don't want to take it away from rape or incest victims.
+ Smoking: I prefer my lungs pink, thank you.
+ Eating Disorders: People's minds...bad things sometimes. But if they're stupid enough to fall for the magazine image of beauty...they have some major maturing to go through.
+ Suicide: most people leave hints before they do ...people are just too stupid to pick up on the hints, maybe because they're absorbed in their own lives too much. It's a terrible thing to go through...my uncle committed suicide...but it was because he was clinically depressed and wouldn't take medication or see a doctor. But how do you tell a judge to make someone go to a doctor when they work two jobs, look like they're fine, and are completely pulled together in public? Really makes you think doesn't it?
+ Summer: Like it, but it's overrated. I enjoy learning honestly....and I'm not too fond of skin cancer...so...
+ Tattoos: defiling of the body. Why would you do something permanent to your body like that? Do you think you're going to want an animal on your leg when you're 65? Probably not.
+ Piercings: one in each ear --> classy. More than that? Kind of trashy. Especially belly buttons, tongues, and noses. *shudder*
SECTION 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? neither!!!!
+ Single or taken? taken
+ MTV or BET? MTV
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? Dawson's Creek
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? flowers
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? depends
+ Stay up late or sleep in? stay up late
+ Hot or cold? hot
+ Sun or moon? moon
+ Left or Right? right
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? one best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? ketchup
+ Spring or Fall? spring
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ Wonder or amazement? amazement
+ McDonald's or Burger King? McDonald's...the fries are amazing...but it's SO bad for me...
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian
+ Lights on or off? off...I guess
+ Candy or soda? candy, totally
+ Pepsi or Coke? pepsi |
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| beyond the barricade is there a world you want to see? |
[Jun. 8th, 2005|06:53 pm] |
| [ | I Feel... |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | Dancing To... |
| | "Do You Hear the People Sing?" ~Les Miserables | ] |
Well, water fun day was this morning. Bails and I worked the coloring station which thank goodness was not that popular. I can't deal with a lot of little kids that early in the morning. This really weird guy sat down and talked to us for a good hour and fifteen minutes...I feel kinda bad cuz I think he was lonely, but we were nice and talked to him, so what ev. Turns out he knows Jayson's sister Janelle and kinda his other sister Janessa...small town. This is exactly why I want to get out of here! He said I look like a cat, just like Sam says. I DO NOT LOOK LIKE A CAT!! I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't! He said to take it as a compliment because he thinks Natalie Portman is hot and looks like a cat, but still. It's only because my eyes are big...I like my big eyes. Uhg. What ever.
Ah, so went to the pool today with JJ and two of his friends...they're fun. Really funny, but I think I like hanging out with just JJ better. I'm not sure what to think of him...I don't know if he likes me or if he thinks of me as a little sister. I wouldn't really argue with either. Not that I would EVER break up with Jayson for him, cuz Jayson's an absolute sweetie...most of the time. When he's not yelling at me like last night he bitched me out about saying guys are hot in front of him. It's not like I'm calling guys hot that I'm attracted to though, I only say those things about my friends...to me it's like saying Bailey's hot. It's an observation about a friend...not like OMG, I would so do that guy. He just can't understand that, and then he threatened to do that in front of me all the time, but since he doesn't understand the friend aspect, he would just piss me off. I dunno, sometimes he's weird about things.
Haha, and Laura told Bails today to step up off her man! Haha, that is so funny. Laura thinks she can claim guys...hello...calling Laura, they think for themselves! She's kind of dillusional sometimes. She means well though, most of the time. Ignore her Bails, go for it. Eric's amazing --> he doesn't smoke, he doesn't drink, he gives people rides home from parties. I approve, whole-heartedly. Some competition will do Laura some good. Haha.
On my way to and from Homer I had a fun session of belting out Les Miserables tunes along with the CD. I wish I could see that again. Too bad you can't find the musical in stores anymore. Humph. I only got through CD 1 though. It's such good music...and everyone needs a total sing along day once in a while. I was driving in the country so at least no one saw me belting out...LoL. Not that I would care if they did...I have no shame anymore. It's a good, good thing. Haha, but I'm only slightly joking.
Okay, well diner is soon, so I had better go. Plus, I'm kind of cold from my private swim instruction with Brucie. Where is my sweatshirt? Uhg.
XoX |
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| you know the world won't stop |
[Jun. 6th, 2005|08:32 am] |
| [ | Dancing To... |
| | "Hard Way" ~Mary Chapin Carpenter | ] |
Ah, Chicago was so much fun....besides being whistled at by an assortment of creepy guys. *shudder* Remind me to never wear a skirt in a big city. Spent a lot of money, came back with great new clothes, and makeup that finally matches my skin tone...no more nasty orange-y make-up for me!! Score. I got the cutest bebe sport outfit that I had to buy with my own money...but I'm absolutely in love with it. It's adorable and hot, et cetera. So Bails and I are are tanning tomorrow after I get off work...uhg. 10:45-3:15...fun fun. I should prolly double check that. Hold on. Yep, I'm right...but at least I get paid on Thursday!! I promised JJ I'd bring him to the pool this week and beat him at the waterslide! Haha, I will too. I feel bad that I couldn't hang out with him tonight, but the train was late getting into town and I was supposed to stop by and see Jayson so...yeah. But Jayson and I only got to talk for a while because his grandparents are in town tonight and tomorrow morning, but Bails suprised me by stopping by and it absolutely made my day! I can't believe I was gone for a day and a half and I missed them so much...how am I going to deal with college? Uhg. But anyways, there are some amusing stories in the survery I filled out that I stole from Michelle, so read it...it'll make you laugh I promise! In fact, 93.6% of people who read this will laugh...well, not really, but I promise. Take my word for it.
B-O-R-E-D...
a n g e r section
do you have a quick temper?: haha, yeah, about that....
what do you do when you're mad?: shake really badly, cry, scream, slam doors
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: ha....umm....last summer I dumped this huge bottle of water over this guy's head and called him a fucking asshole...yeah, kind of soaked him and all he could do was stare at me because no one expects that stuff out of me.
if you can take back time, would you have never done this?: HA! I'm glad I did it...he was an asshole...and I've been so much more confident ever since and I can actually stand up for myself now...so, NO WAY!
ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yeah...that I kind of regret
ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: yeah, but my brother started it!!!
do you curse when you're mad?: I try not to, but sometimes it just slips out...that's when you know I'm REALLY mad.
c r y i n g section.
when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: last week sometime would be my guess...when Jayson yelled at me
ever cried yourself to sleep?: oh yeah.
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: of course
ever cried over the opposite sex?: uh huh.
do you cry when you get an injury?: nope...I'm so glad I was a tomboy when I was little. If you cry, the boys don't let you play, so I learned not to cry.
do certain songs make you cry? OH yeah!
can you make yourself cry?: haha, yes...but shhh, that's a secret...I use that to get out of trouble.
p a i n section.
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: wow, it's kind of hard to say...there are three things I can think of... 1). my old-best friend's dad dying in a car accident and her pushing me out of her life 2). my other old-best friend's mom dying and her pushing me out of her life as well, or 3). this girl adopting and basically stealing my personality and turning all my old friends against me...yeah, it's been a rough life.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: let people push me around or make me feel less than human...I surprise myself...I can take a lot of shit when it comes down to that, and I guess I really shouldn't.
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: haha, prolly the dumping water thing from above...or when I used to get mad at my mom I'd scream "I wish I was dead!" and slam my door because I knew it would bother her because my uncle killed himself...yeah...I was a mean little kid....shame on me.
ever had a painful break up?: nope
what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: like being mean because it makes you feel better?...yeah, done it.
do you inflict pain on yourself?: Only by pushing myself too hard in sports to prove to the boys that I can play as well as they can...no, but I know what you mean...used to think about it, never did it.
h a p p y section.
are you normally a happy person?: lately it's been getting better
what can make you happy?: surprises...like randomly showing up at my house to say hi or something...absolutely LOVE that!!
do you wish you were happier?: oh, doesn't everyone?
what makes you the happiest?: that's hard to say...random things I suppose: sometimes it's a smile from Jayson...sometimes it's someone I haven't talked to in a long time calling me out of the blue.
is being happy overrated?: heck no.
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: most def.
can music make you happy?: yeah
l o v e section.
how many times have you had your heart broken?: 2
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: yes...sorry, no details for that one.
have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: yes
did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yeah
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yeah, best feeling in the entire world!
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no, but prolly would...depends on the situation I suppose...never been in that particular one, so wouldn't know.
h a t e section.
who do you actually hate?: actually, no one.
ever made a hit list?: NO! haha, that would be scary!
have you ever been on a hit list?: not that I know of...and I hope not, I get along with a lot of people...
are you a mean bully?: of course...JK JK! No!
do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: I WANT to, but no.
do you hate George Bush?: extremely dislike...with a passion...how about that.
s e l f - e s t e e m section.
is your self-esteem extremely low?: nope, it used to be, but that changed after last summer.
do you believe in yourself?: yep yep
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: YA, cuz I'm not!
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: no...just not pretty. It's weird...I don't think I'm ugly...I just don't find myself attractive either. Huh.
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: yeah, let's not talk about those times...
are you happy with who you are?: YEP! now I am.
do you wish you can be someone else?: HECK NO! |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|08:35 pm] |
So...me, my mom, Chicago, shopping, two days. How much trouble can we get into? Haha, a lot. My mom and I always end up finding a way to have a lot of fun when it's just us. I'm really glad we're going away...I mean, my mom and I really only get along when she's shopping for me, but that's because she's nice to me when she's shopping for me. She actually tells me that I look good in things and stuff like that whereas at home she doesn't. So this should be good. Plus, I need new clothes. Well..haha, want AND need new clothes. But same diff. We have to catch a train at 6:10 am tomorrow morning and I still have to pack and stuff. I have to shower at like 10 tonight so that my hair will actually look good for shopping tomorrow. If it doesn't I'm going to freak. I don't feel like I look good unless my hair looks good, so...yeah, kind of important. Jayson's going to hang out with me tonight cuz he'll be without me for two days. He says he'll miss me a lot, but why do I have the feeling that he'll have a lot of fun with me gone? I'm so paranoid sometimes. But what ev...I'll be having fun too, so it's kind of even. And that's all I'm going to write considering I wrote a huge, fatty entry this morning.
*Lovins*
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